Futility

I feel like dieting, conception, and cleaning are often exercises in futility. With dieting (and exercising of course) it never seems to help. I have been doing marvelously for almost a month now and I have not lost 1 pound. I haven't been able to conceive for 10 months now. And no matter how much time I spend cleaning more stuff just gets it the way. I have a hard time getting rid of things so I hold onto anything and everything. Overall I seem to be just carrying around extra baggage that is ruining my body, life, and house but I just can't seem to get rid of any of it. I have a little less than 2 years left here and hopefully the next time I leave I will be able to devote more time to improving myself instead of just my report card.